This term I thought I would have all the free time in the world to start on new programming and art projects. I wasn’t taking any courses other than the co-op course I was required to take. With the stress of school gone and a not-intensely-demanding job, I figured, why not.

I was a lot more productive with my free time two months ago than I am now. In the last few months, I have played around with Ruby and Go, reviewed Javascript and PHP, and got back into sketching and illustration. I even made a mad-woman attempt to solve as much as I could on Project Euler.

Nearing the midway point of this work term, I feel like my motivation to stick to this “creative” regimen is slipping away. Maybe it’s because the days are getting shorter? Recently, I decided to take a step back from all my unfinished work and just do littler things. Ironically, I’ve started fixing markUP. I’m writing more though, which I miss doing.

In two months, I’ll be back school and have no time whatsoever to even think about free time. I don’t want to look back and regret not spending my time more effectively. I will always have future work terms to redeem myself, I suppose. It’s cyclical!

Well enough of this verging-on-sob story! Today of course is Halloween! I didn’t dress up as anything though. Too busy I suppose 😛 Last year, my friends and I were spoon murderers. We spent the night scaring the shit out of drunk people. Ahh, good times.

Hmm… that’s probably why I feel so down all of a sudden! I barely have a social life this term lol. I’m not a club-goer or social butterfly, but it would be sure be nice to sit down and just laugh with good friends. I feel stir-crazy [insert the Sims 3 moodlet here]. So this is what the daily life of a real adult is like! Wake up, go to work, eat, and go home. Rinse and repeat. How depressing. My future has just flashed before my ^*~azn~*^ eyes!

I MUST RESIST MY CUBICLE-SITTING FATE! XD

I know this sounds like your typical, cliche student ambition, but it would be nice to take a year off and literally do whatever I want.

I WANT TO RUN AWAY AND LIVE ON AN ISLAND WITH A SWEET STEINWAY AND FROLIC AROUND WITH PAINT IN MY HURR!

The nice thing about being in university is that you track and determine your own progress. A LOT of students forget this! I think that’s the main reason why we are stressed as hell. We’ve deluded ourselves in believing in deadlines. We’ve forgotten that we’ve outgrown the hand-holding from our parents and teachers.

Time is running out, but not really.

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